{"id":897,"date":"2020-09-14T01:02:04","date_gmt":"2020-09-14T07:02:04","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.thedailyleaf.su\/?p=897"},"modified":"2026-02-05T18:04:08","modified_gmt":"2026-02-06T00:04:08","slug":"its-not-a-secret-i-wanted-to-know","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thedailyleaf.com\/?p=897","title":{"rendered":"It&#8217;s not a secret I wanted to know"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-audio\"><audio controls src=\"http:\/\/nightowl.cc\/May-8.1.mp3\"><\/audio><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>She\u2019s standing inches away from my face looking up at me with a fury in her eyes, screaming at me that she just cares about me and why can\u2019t I see that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I\u2019m really confused right now because nothing that started this whole conversation is anything that I really care about, and I\u2019m not really sure where she wants this to go. Is she trying to break me with the drivel, or is she really trying to communicate in the broken way she\u2019s learned over the years?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I\u2019m feeling fragile, and all of the yelling is getting to me. I try to look past her and stare at the floor, but she knows what I\u2019m doing and is putting herself in the path of my vision trying to make eye contact.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sighing, \u201cI don\u2019t understand why you\u2019re doing this\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Exasperated, and with a gritty energy in her voice, \u201cI\u2019m telling you I care about you!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cYou keep saying that\u201d, my voice is shaking and to be honest she\u2019s hurting my feelings with all of this right now. Where did the night go so wrong that we\u2019d end up here? And now there\u2019s a sinking feeling pulling away any excitement that started the whole evening, the feeling that this is it. This is going to be the night that ends everything with us, and this is the last real moment I\u2019m going to remember together.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI can\u2019t do this\u201d, the frown on my face is annoying her now, \u201cI can\u2019t stay here tonight\u201d&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The irony of what she had been yelling just moments ago was not lost on me, but I knew it was fruitless to try to keep her around any longer. What could I really expect to happen? I was her punching bag for the last half hour and now she\u2019s tired of me, and that\u2019s probably how I\u2019m going to remember this whole relationship.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Now it\u2019s a year and a half later, and through a chance encounter, we\u2019re out having dinner together at somewhere I thought was fairly romantic for our limited options on short notice.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>She\u2019s talking, but right now I\u2019m not really sure to whom. The only words I\u2019ve heard her say in the past few minutes were, \u201cI\u2019m engaged now\u201d, and nothing else she has to say really matters to me.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I want to say, for almost literally anyone else I would be truly excited for them, but she\u2019s pulled this utter bullshit of dragging me out for dinner and hiding all of this from me until I\u2019ve paid the bill.&nbsp;.  <a href=\"https:\/\/saverestaurants.co\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">bellavauntvip megafox nude amp Q<\/a><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I really want to tell her to fuck off right now, but just like I bit my tongue all that time ago and let her walk out, I\u2019m smiling and telling her congratulations while making up a reason while I need to leave early. \u201cIt\u2019s a work thing\u201d, it\u2019s clear from the expression on her face that she doesn\u2019t believe me, but she smiles with a \u201cfine\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It will be the last time speak.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>She\u2019s standing inches away from my face looking up at me with a fury in her eyes, screaming at me that she just cares about me and why can\u2019t I see that. 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